Pascale Petit: Jaguar Mama
Jaguar Mama
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Once, she was the giant jaguar of my prehistory,
carried me tenderly between sabre teeth,
licked my rosettes until they grew lush
as treeferns draped with black orchids—
the whirlpools and rocks of her tongue
almost pulled my skin off, I never knew
if she was grooming or preparing to eat me.
Her eyes were oxbows in which piranha shoals thrashed.
My painted warrior, who retreated into the wetland
as her power waned, the symmetry of her face
fissioned into a Bosch triptych, wrinkles over her cheeks
like demons no powder could conceal,
demons cascading from the mouths of demons,
wrinkles wielding pitchforks.
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Sometimes I’d glimpse her drinking her reflection
or reclining on a sandbank as if it was a chaise longue,
a Gitane dangling from her lips like a rolled up rainforest
she’d set on fire during one of her rages.
Give me her rages, her running rampage down the street
naked, rather than this drugged beast
the goldminers taunt, that tourists pay to gawp at.
Give me her razoring stare, the tinfoil glint
in the killing pools of her eyes, not this stingray infested
swamp bordered by bats, mosquito-cloud
cataracts over her eyes. Give me
the mother who runs through the estate
showering money at kids, who unpins tenners
from the flames of her hair.
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Hold that high, a pale-winged trumpeter’s tremolo
vibrating through her even while she sleeps.
Who knows what they dream, these patients
on sleep treatment. They descend to an understorey
bristling with ants, get stung but keep sleeping.
They don’t eat for a month, haunted by hoots
of the night monkey. Then the howlers start
their dawn delirium. First one, like the door
of hell wrenched open, then others
and it’s a gale ripping through a ship, until
the whole selva is convulsed. The inmates
try to reply but their throats are stuck.
Light, when it filters through her eyelids
is the oropendola’s waterdrop-note, a nurse
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shaking her arm to say your daughter’s come to visit.
I entered the hospital like a fawn who must be sacrificed.
Better to be torn limb by limb alive
than to be rowed over the stagnant lakes of Mother’s eyes.
Give me a telescope’s safe distance
to view the jacamar perched on her saline drip,
the screaming piha on her head-board.
Was it lithium or mercury that poisoned her?
that dissolved the oil paintings of onça-pintada,
the face she made up so carefully each morning.
Now her mascara’s streaked, her paw shakes.
My mother in her spotted pyjamas,
vicious as a jaguar caught in a trap,
the tranquilliser dart wearing off.
My fierce mama, her teeth in a mug,
hydroelectric dams draped around her neck.
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