Myra Schneider: Five Poems
Cushion Moss
The sad paragraphs in the paper offer
no answers but they fade a little once I’m outside
although there’s rain in the air and the sudden sun
silvering naked twigs as I enter the park
doesn’t last. I’m in the copse where rooks
are flapping in quarrel as usual, when it stops me
in my tracks: moss cushioning a fallen tree.
The green fabric is so vibrant it’s almost luminous.
It awakens grey branches and untidy brambles
emerging from clots of darkness. Hard to believe
this green is natural but no manmade process
could possibly create such soft brilliance.
It’s not water meadow green, not nettle green,
lime green, olive, not glossy laurel,
not intense Lorca green. It’s a green spawned
by the damp bedded in rotting logs and deep
leaf mush, a green that’s been so mothered
by light it banishes lightlessness, a green
more potent than the science which explains it,
a green which fills my mind, feeds my arteries,
a green that urges: never give up.
Myra Schneider
Homeless
Months ago but I can’t shift him
from my mind. A slip of a boy, not more
than sixteen, he’s sitting on the pavement in Curzon Street,
world of the wealthy, propped against a lamppost outside an upmarket
Tesco Express, his only possessions a sleeping bag and an empty paper cup.
I don’t suppose he’s noticed
the mansion up the road, home of the aristocracy
for centuries, now a Middle Eastern embassy. Railings obscure
its lawns and guards armed with rifles are on duty by the electronic gates
which bear the emblem of a sturdy palm tree set between a pair of crossed swords.
He seems as yet untouched
by sleeping rough. Nearby, weighty volumes
bound in leather and silver cutlery, bedded in a canteen’s
snug felt, beckon from glinting windows and even the Caffè Nero looks
posh. He’s as out of place as those daunting gates would be in a housing estate.
The autumnal afternoon is colourless
but there’s a sense of crimson and ochre leaves
paling and falling, of winter in the wings. In the cinema
we watch a film about a widower with a heart condition who’s made
homeless because he can’t, won’t jump through bureaucracy’s technological hoops.
When we come out diners are feasting
in restaurants where a popular market was once held.
The lad is still in the same spot. I buy him a chicken sandwich
in Tesco’s. Surprised, his face breaks into a smile and he grasps my hand.
I smile too but I’m pierced by shame sharp as the spikes on the embassy’s railings.
Myra Schneider
Looking at Light
You love it for pouncing with obvious delight
on this bottle of water, implanting flecks
like a series of intense kisses on the neck,
seizing on the flowers speckling the mat
underneath and multiplying them in the bottle’s
transparent interior. Another feat:
it’s blued the frostbitten park but the sun
will emerge, lay pinkish streamers
on the stiff grass and paleness will disappear
as it douses the air with a sense of gold.
All your rooms will awaken and you’ll long
to keep lucidity but nothing will stop
crimsons and violets from spilling over the sky
to herald darkness. But when the day dies
you’ll gaze at dazzle-needles which the bottles
on the bathroom window ledge have snatched
from the streetlights, at the electric red
splashed on the panes by a passing car
and for moments illumination will fill you.
Later, you’ll wake to a chill nothingness
but you’ll find a lemon pool of moon
on the landing carpet, wish you could kneel
and gather it up in your arms, wish
its silent certainty could wipe out grief.
Myra Schneider
Returning
Once again May has grabbed me by the scruff,
again I’ve sloughed off the winter sleep
of forgetting, am stunned by new green dotting
trees, how it unfolds in leaps and bounds
on verges, in rail sidings, depot yards
and every handkerchief of waste ground.
It’s as if I’ve never looked at the freckles
of milky florets cramming hawthorn twigs,
the clots of elderflowers. And although once
I was wild as fieldside brambles it’s as if
I’ve never fingered newly risen grasses:
feather-headed fescue, the whiskers of barley
or the brush heads of timothy, have just learnt
that warmth makes a bed in untamed grass
which covets clover and white parsley umbrellas.
I breathe in the sweet extravagance,
dream I’ll come back as grass or blossom
until a voice in my head mocks with lists
of droughts, names of extinct species. I think
of vanished sparrows and how often the stream
in the park is dry-lipped, the earth pocked
with cracks. And it yawns before me: the possibility
of fescue, flowers, leaves not returning.
Myra Schneider
The Moment
Shoving our bodies against the wind,
we start a slow marathon round
the bay to the Turner Gallery, a hulk
looming in the distance, pass dead
ice-cream parlours and a couple of dippy
gift shops. Clouds are speeding
across the sky’s immensity, waves
are cascading onto the esplanade and rushing
the wild waters of my childhood upon me.
We’re halfway when the sun pushes
through the busy traffic overhead.
In seconds the world transforms. I gape
at luminous greens awakening in swirls
of gunmetal sea, at yellowgolds glinting
on white crests and suddenly I know
why he painted this expanse so often.
The revelation is like moonlight flooding
darkness and just for a moment I am Turner.
Myra Schneider
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