Edith Speers: Two Poems
These balloons are okay
The children were not at the funeral
but they knew their grand-dad was gone.
All the same
they raced and tumbled like puppies
and raided the trays of chocolate goodies
and cakes and pastry.
While grown-ups talked and
talked and talked,
they went on with their games and their play
until at the end of the day when the dark came,
their mothers and grandmothers
gathered them all together out on the quiet street
unusually crowded with parked cars,
all those family cars parked nose to tail,
and they were given balloons,
one each to hold by the string,
and each balloon they were told
would hold their special goodbye,
whatever they wanted to say,
whatever they thought of
during a moment of heads bowed,
eyes closed silence,
the balloons would take to grandpa.
So this they did.
Then all together, and all at once,
they opened their hands and watched,
and watched with wonder,
their messages rise up beyond the street lights,
beyond the power lines and even higher
heading for the spaces between the stars,
heading for heaven.
So let’s pretend
that not all rubbish is the same,
and not all balloons burst or deflate,
and drop back to earth again
to choke ducks
or create litter that never decays.
Carrying the prayers of children
let’s pretend
these balloons are okay.
Edith Speers
Nil by Mouth
Not just for a while but forever
to never swallow
because you might choke,
because of this thing called ALS,
this thing called Lou Gehrig’s disease,
this thing that is the inside-out of dementia,
this thing that kills your control
over nerves and muscles
but leaves your mind alive to endure it all.
Cheating is your only pleasure—
to bite and chew and chew and chew
and savour the treasure
of every drop of flavour but never swallow,
to wait until the wad in your mouth
is only fibre
or to swish a bit of wine
around and around your tongue and gums
but never follow through.
Never again will you feel
the gulp down your throat of the swallow.
It’s not allowed, not ever,
for a mouthful to go where it has always gone.
You can not follow life’s hallowed tradition.
You can not do what is natural.
You must go against millennia of evolution
and your own compelling inclination,
and instead,
from now until you’re dead,
you must spit out nutrition.
All of which is now supplied exclusively
by a murky solution
held up on a metal hook and stanchion
in a plastic bag with a plastic tube
that is surgically implanted into the hidden
curved receptacle
of the stomach
which is not just a hollow vessel but a muscle,
a flexing and chemical-oozing component
in a complex assembly line factory
of alimentary function,
an essential survival mechanism
like the urge to swallow,
not allowed
not any more
not ever.
Edith Speers
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